And everything was wrong so we sang sentimental songs

Sat, 09 Apr 2005 18:19:37 GMT

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Sun, 16 Jan 2005 06:10:48 GMT

whoa, i havent updated in like a month. sorry. not like im even sure anyone reads this anymore anyway.

im over at kristins tonight with haleigh. hunter, jacob and jake came over earlier. those guys are a HOOT. hilarious.

if you havent heard Chase's new band Fusi@matica, you really need to check it out. mad crazy techno shiz.
www.purevolume.com/fusiamatica listen to Colors In The Rain.

yeah im tired. bye.

though ive tried... im falling.

Sat, 13 Nov 2004 21:39:16 GMT

whats goin on? me and kristi are chillin' at the GPL. We didnt wake up until 12:30 today! :-O ive been waking up at like 8 something for the past few weekends so this was a big deal.

Last night was pimptastic. kristi and i joined joe and boombostick (jarett) for some bowling. i didnt play cause id rather not humiliate myself in front of everyone but kristi did a pretty good job of doing that herself. haha she didnt do THAT bad, but compared to the boys, she got her ass kicked. it was hilarious. We're gonna go again next weekend for part of kristi's mad crazy birthday weekend. which also includes the kirby/firekills show, eating at her moms restaurant and the faint show. w00t w00t.

as for me and joe, i think we officially broke up on monday? yeah i think it was monday. and then things were really akward between us and we couldnt even be around eachother and it sucked. but then on wednesday at church, after alot of akward conversations and such, kristi and joe were sitting behind me and i passed a piece of paper back for kristi to see and when it came back to me, joe had written "im sorry" on it and i was like awww and so we wrote back and forth a few times and he was like "i love you, but i think we both need to decide what we want out of a relationship before we try to go out again" and then we had a loooong talk about it after church and just decided to wait to go out again. but there is absolutely no acting like we arent together on his part... its like we are acting more like a couple than we ever are, if you count continuous groping acting like a couple. hahah i swear... me and haleigh declared this week as "national horny boys week" because it seems as if all of them are a bit more 'excited' then they usually are. JARETT GOT ADDED TO THE LIST LAST NIGHT. now if you know jarett, you would NEVER think he could possibly be horny or perverted but indeed, he showed both qualities last night and we are all so amazed. lol Kristi has this little makeup bag shaped like underwear and he kept being like "i have my hands all over kristis underwear" and we were like ":-0 boombostick!" and it didnt just end there. but needless to say, its amusing.

im so pissed, i just realized that i missed like 3 good shows this week. INCLUDING a static lullaby and hopesfall. damnit damnit damnit. BUT BUT BUT i have been personally asked to attend The Kirby show on Friday but anthony so that should be cool.

if anyone would like to help me fix my icon so it doesnt look so gayz0r and blurry... please let me know.

stop being a whoreeeeeeeeeeeeee

Sat, 06 Nov 2004 20:49:36 GMT

this is the first time ive ever listened to The Blood Brothers and they are so dang good omg. lol this song is so good/hilarious... "pray for the whore" man oh man.

missed the goddamn daughters/blood brothers/kirby show last night. sucksssss.

me and joe are DONE as of today. and this time, i dont feel any remorse. whats done is done. theres no turning back. time to move on to bigger and better things ((dont think of that in a crude way)). i need to find myself a HAWT HAWT HAWT boy. any takers?

"she gets paid, she gets paid, she gets for whoriiiiiiiiiiiiiiiing" oh its <3

if anyone would wanna burn me a cd with some blood brothers on it or something, it would be SO greatly appreciated.

if you play with the wolves, you will get yourself eaten... my love.

Thu, 14 Oct 2004 23:29:28 GMT

woo wee... i just found Anthony's myspace randomly and his pictures are HAWT.

lets take a look....

im a fake

Mon, 11 Oct 2004 19:56:01 GMT

THE USED CONCERT FUCKING ROCKED.

it would have been like 100 times better if i had met them though, but it was still good.

we got there and saw Head Automatica and then i look up and see mother fucking BERT MCCRACKEN on the balcony and almost have a heart attack so i called haleigh and she was like "did you talk to him?!!?" and i was like "HES ON A BALCONY. NO." lol and then we saw Atreyu and almost freaking died because people were packed so close together pushing and shoving that you could barely breath and when you did breath, all you inhaled was cigarette smoke. so i was almost passing out so some guy lifted me up and i just crowd surfed to the front so i could get out and go to the back. THEN i was all bored and anxious to get back in there so i worked my way up a tiny bit and some very large jamaican man lifted me up and i crowd surfed to the middle and then i get down and people are all pushing and shoving and i look to my right and theres CHASE and i was like "hahaha hey!" it was tizight. then i finally looked over and saw jacob's mohawk and so i followed it over to him and ashley... then me and ashley were almost dying as we were waiting for the used to come on cause they took like 30 minutes to set up and people kept pushing and shoving and there wasnt even music playing or anything so i got pissed and yelled at the top of my lungs "STAND STILL MOTHER FUCKERS" and like 348398 people looked at me and i was like "yeah *nodding head* thats right." lol then we couldnt take it anymore so we just went to the back and the used came on and i was like "omg i have to get in there" so of course i pushed and shoved my way allllll the way up to the front... there were only about 3 people in front of me so i was thrashing around trying to take pictures and none of them really showed up cause it was dark and i was being pushed and shoved everytime i tried to get a picture and then i used all the energy i had so i just left and went to the back again. then we went and stood on picnic tables and i saw like 3 people i knew and amy came up with only one shoe on... someone had taken her other one off and thrown it. HAHA it was sad/funny. then they played "im a fake" and i could sing the whole first part with Bert and it was tizight. then we left... went to Wendy's and ordered like 7 things off the 99 cent menu cause we are poor. then we went up to a tattoo place so ashley could pee and ended up talking to the hot boy that worked there for like 30 minutes. THEN came like the funniest part of the night.... we saw these hobos sleeping on benches so we went to go sit down on an empty one and jacob goes up to one where this black lady is sleeping so he sits down and she wakes up and looks at him and is like "what are you doing" and hes like "same thing youre doing" and shes like "you might wanna move, im about to go to sleep" and hes like "NOT IF I DO FIRST!" and lays down (hahahaha) and she gets really pissed and is like "im either calling the cops or leaving" and hes like "yeah call the cops for LAYING DOWN ON A BENCH" so they argue for a few minutes and then he comes back over and was like "pshh... shes just mad cause i took her house" hahahah i havent laughed so hard in a really long time. there was more to the conversation, but i cant really remember. well long story short... THE CONCERT WAS AWESOME. i would say that my life is complete, but my life is in fact, NOT complete until i meet bert mccracken.

pictures

Sun, 10 Oct 2004 17:10:24 GMT

my holy jeans

these are the dead stars that march by your eyes

Fri, 08 Oct 2004 21:54:19 GMT

today is friday and i am glad. SUNDAY IS THE USED!!!!!!!!!!!!! whoop. im so excited about that you have no idea. tonight's gonna be cool.... goin with Kristi to the football game somewhere like Leander or something and then we're prolly gonna go be crazy and do something afterward. Hayden wanted me to come hang out with him and chris tonight... but thats not gonna happen. all the sudden haydens all "hey lets hang out" and im like "wtf you never ask to hang out"... strange. TODAY WAS ^greatness. corfro has a crush on allison but she had never seen him before so this morning me and joe find corfro but we cant find allison so we go rushing around the school to find her so we can show her what he looks like and like a minute till the bell rings...we find her and we all stick our heads into corfro's classroom and he gave us the weirdest look ever. it was great. then allison started giggling as we were walking down the hall because she ALWAYS giggles when we're like "dude corfro think you are hotttttttttt"... just giggles uncontrolably. misssss elyssa wasnt at school today! why why why? i was frantically looking for her but nope, didnt find her. i wonder where she was....

dont really have much to say.

ill take you down the only road ive ever been down

Fri, 08 Oct 2004 00:30:55 GMT

me and suuuuuruh

ha looks like shes looking at my crotch

i cant change no i cant change

Fri, 08 Oct 2004 00:20:30 GMT

listen to "Bitter Sweet Symphony" - The Verve

SkOtCh395: ok well, if you were my RL GF we would have had sex like .....oooohhhh i dunno like 6 times already

HAHAHA.... he's funny.

take my hand, take my mind

Thu, 07 Oct 2004 23:10:25 GMT

THE USED AND ATREYU ON SUNDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i have waited years to see The Used in concert... holy shat im excited.

then Joe is dragging me along to Zao sometime in late october. they're good.

but NO concert beats The Used :-D

those are the death stars

Sat, 02 Oct 2004 16:39:30 GMT

Joe kissed me last night :-D :-D

it was great, i was just like randomly talking and BAM... tottttally caught me off guard.

it was really cool.

no one has any reason to complain....

Tue, 28 Sep 2004 23:14:48 GMT

yeah me and joe are going out :-D :-D :-D

heck yesssss!

i want the pain of payment

Mon, 27 Sep 2004 21:58:23 GMT

i think im in love.

or maybe just a WHOLEEEEE lot of like.

<3

im a fake im a fake im a fake

Thu, 23 Sep 2004 23:20:54 GMT

Small, simple, safe price.
Rise the wake and carry me with all of my regrets.
This is not a small cut that scabs, and dries, and flakes, and heals.
And I am not afraid to die.
I'm not afraid to bleed, and fuck, and fight.
I want the pain of payment.
What's left, but a section of pigmy size cuts.
Much like a slew of a thousand unwanted fucks.
Would you be my little cut?
Would you be my thousand fucks?
And make mark leaving space for the guilt to be liquid.
To fill, and spill over, and under my thoughts.
My sad, sorry, selfish cry out to the cutter.
I'm cutting trying to picture your black broken heart.
Love is not like anything.
Especially a fucking knife.

the new THE USED stuff is pure brilliance.

let's see...

Wed, 22 Sep 2004 22:09:11 GMT

tried to pierce my lip 2 nights ago... hurts like a mofo cause i stopped like half-way. vurrrrrry sore.

found out that The Used and Atreyu are playing at Stubbs on October 10th.. soo definitely going to that.

got glares by mean 80's girl today cause im wearing my At The Drive-In shirt. hahah

and saw mark from the kirby blowing leaves behind the NGC the other day. ;-)

walking on glasssss

Sat, 18 Sep 2004 23:32:34 GMT

haleigh is telling me how i left a message on her phone a million years ago and i sound like a huge hick... GROSSSS. i sincerely hope i do NOT have an accent. no offense to people that do, but i dont want to have one. lol anyways... me and haleigh are hanging out at shrunky's tonight...WHOOP WHOOP. haleigh was driving us home from Walmart today and this car like pulls out RIGHT in front of her and we freakin almost rammed the back of their car and so haleighs mom like honked for a looooong time and then a while up the road, they were like behind us so me and shrunky turned around the guy flicked us off! i was like WHAT THE EFF! we werent the ones that fucking cut them off and almost caused a huge wreck. shiiiiit. i got so effing pissed... idk why but i did. im gonna have to take one of those road rage classes i swear. man, if haleighs mom wasnt in the car... i would have gone insane and like gotten out of the car and kicked some ass. ahh cant think about it it just pisses me off. we were gonna hang out with hayden shuster and holden again tonight... but nothing is working out cause shuster is like in trouble and then kristins mom got mad that we took so long to figure stuff out so now we cant go to a movie anymore. suuuucks. oh well, im content with staying here. OHHHH i forgot to tell yall that i got my hair cut on like wednesday. its alright... its short and the lady cut it like all across and i hate straight across blunt cuts... i need some jaggedness. and when i say short i dont mean like sarah ripps hair, like shoulder length which is short for me. but whateva. Shrunky's mom got the coolest cell phone today and so we were playing with the camera..haha its pimptastic. i would post some... but shrunks is too lazy to go get the phone and she goes "later" and then she said that we wont get on the internet tonight so ohhhh well too bad for you.

i never meant to be so cold.

Tue, 14 Sep 2004 22:56:15 GMT

got the coolest shoes at Target yesterday... whoop whoop. Also got me a bigger CD case and the Underoath CD. HELLS YEAH. its really good. i had this project for photojournalism where i had to take pictures of people and get their names and stuff but i didnt get their names so i just used all the band members names of Underoath. hollllla. it was cool shiz.

somebody better freakin comment cause im getting sick of checking this thing and seeing no comments. ya hear?

Sat, 11 Sep 2004 16:59:20 GMT

woo hoo... get to go to the drag today and haleigh and allison are comin' with.

its your birfday, gonna party like its your birfday

Tue, 07 Sep 2004 22:34:54 GMT

its mah burfday.

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lucky42288: HAPPY BIRTHDAY
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aKiSSa4mMsAlyssa: HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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lucky42288: HAPpY BIRTHDAY MARILYN
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ohh the love

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dasani... purified water.

Sun, 05 Sep 2004 08:51:28 GMT

heyyy im at alyssas tonight. her house is pimp, i love spending the night cause we always stay up all night either like talking or being online or taking pictures or something cool like that. this weekend has sorta sucked up until tonight cause its like my birthday weekend (birthday is tuesday so therefore this is my weekend :-) ) yeah well my friends, being kristin and ashley decide they are just going to ditch me and go hang out without me on the weekend thats most important to me. it really got to me... i mean its not really normal for your "best friends" to go behind your back and hang out on your birthday... idk what to do. i dont want to make a big deal about it cause i hate making big deals about things but i never get mad about stuff and i guess it just builds up? who knows. all I know is that i need new friends, but that doesnt work very well because i have a problem with like picking a group of a few friends and devoting all my time to them and revolving everything around them and then im not making any other friends... if that makes sense. and i need to stop doing that because then those people i depend on for plans ditch me and i have no one to go to. :-/ sucks pretty hardcore. oh well though, i have some friends that care about me...or so i hope. lol like HALEIGH, alyssa d, alyssa a, elyssa, shayne, hayden, holden, shuster, ashley r, thomas, rachelle, michael h, courtney, allison, sarah, ashley C, cole, lee, kyle, and people like that. oh and charlie... you're my buddy too. Despite the fact that we never hang out, you say hey to me in the hall and thats really cool so you're my friend. ha. oh and dont mind it if i say "thats pimp" to stuff because that is my newest phrase and even if you think its stupid, i think its quite amusing so im sticking with it.

IN YO FACE.

go on just say it... you need me like a bad habit.

Thu, 02 Sep 2004 22:15:30 GMT

THE FINCH CONCERT EFFING ROCKED.

got to meet Nate AND R2K and got their signatures. HECK YES!

Recover, Counterfit, and Beta Factor were amazing!

bring on taking back sunday.

also, Allison has introduced me to Love Drug, if you like them... lemme know. GOOD STUFF.

and last but not least... theres a new boy i've got my eye on. ;-)

go on just say it... you need me like a bad habit.

Thu, 02 Sep 2004 22:15:13 GMT

Mon, 30 Aug 2004 23:06:25 GMT

yeah dont hit your head against a brick wall when youre trying to lay your head down... it causes painnnnnn.

my head hurts. :-(

the stale taste of recycled air

Sun, 29 Aug 2004 06:24:07 GMT

tonight was cool business. Hayden Holden and Shuster came over and we all hung out. my first time to ever really meet shuster. i always said i hated him cause he was a dick but hes actually nice, weird how that works out. and then of course being around hayden and holden is always very entertaining/fun. love those guys. we all sat outside in the dark, while it rained. finch on tuesday. heck yessssss. i'm excited. i love having things to look forward to. dont get that too often. you know the feeling when you wake up and you try to think of something exciting to be happy about and you just cant think of anything and then you get depressed? hate that. happens alot, therefore im excited that there are at least a few concerts i can look forward to since this week has been shitty in the friends department. but i guess tonight changed that, i hope. me and ashley mcbee finally have an understanding that we dont hate eachother and we're tight. and me and shrunky are back to normal so thats good news. tomorrow kristins parents are taking us out to breakfast then i think we are going to go see either napolean dynamite again or the exorcist movie. i like the way things are working out with people and stuff. like alot of people talk to me at school and thats cool cause it just is. like all the upperclassmen are talking to me in my chemistry class and charlie says hey and cory too so it puts me in a good mood. dont ask why, i dont really know. as of this moment i can say that i am content with stuff and i can just relax.